New Boots

Shopping is a girl best therapy they say. I couldn't agree more. With all the shits smacking me on the face, I badly need one. So yesterday, I shopped for my family. I bought souvenirs, shirts for bro and dad, handbag for mom, purse for sisters. Today I shopped for myself. Tada! Boots! :D

Now, I'm off to exam hall! What about all my troubles? They say let sleeping dogs lie.

My heart's a mess.

I need a time off from myself. I need to get away from all the shit that's happening. Shits that happens because of my own doings. Damn, I need to stop getting myself in trouble. I really need to do that. But how? How? People tell me I am doing all this because I am an attention seeker whore. I am not. Or maybe I am. I don't know. I don't know. I don't want to hurt anyone, it will hurt me too, more than what it did to you. Please, please, I really am sorry. I don't mean to hurt you. I never meant to hurt you. I don't know why I did what I did. Please, please, forgive me. My heart's a mess, and you know what? Me myself is a mess. I need to be put in a mental institution, far away from people, locked in all alone without having to hurt anyone, only me. It's better that I hurt myself rather than other people that I love. I can't live with myself. Not ever. This self-loathing is growing, it's growing to an immense size, that I cannot blow it away no matter how hard I huff and I puff.


I am a failure.

And this time, this heart-aching, world-destroying pain in my chest... It's all me.

Ridiculous English. For real.

Beautiful, Fat and Love.

What's yours?

October Fest

Probably the image that pops into your mind is something like this:

Or maybe this:

Well, lots of events going in October. One, is of course, yours truly's birthday. The other is my buddies, Nadzirah Embong 

and Farah Hanis Salehan

I hope you guys have a blast!

Oh.

Happy HAXIMA day too.

Have a nice day sweethearts.

Coklat~

Dum dum dee dum~

Malaysia~ Here I come~

Want to know a secret?

You. Yes you, the one with a pair of eyes and one nose and a wrinkly forehead, probably from wondering where I am heading with this sentence.

Oh well. Read on. I have a secret to share.

A fact.

You might think I am rambling on and on and on...
Till you get tired of reading.

And you probably going to say "What the hell?" at this point. Don't you worry about that. This is going to be worth your time.

The thing is..

Oh wait, is that a comet I see there?

Oh. Sorry. That's just a ball coming through my window and broke it. Oh well. I'll get them pay for it.

What? Oh yes. Secret.

The truth is..

Well, I myself never thought I'll be saying this..


But the thing is.. You have to be careful when you're telling a secret to someone else. They probably use it against you.

What? Oh, you know that already?

Fine.

I'll move along.

That's not the secret, do you know that?

So the REAL secret is..

The REAL thing is..


You probably wasted 5 minutes over this. Teehee. :p

I am the bloody red queen :D

Aha! I'm done with the tests! Off with their heads!

I'm hilarious. :D

BLOGGER DA AWESOME!

Have you seen the new blogger layout? It's awesome! Like effing awesome!

21

Dah 21 tahun aku hidup. To be precise, 21 tahun and 1 hari. Dah dewasa. Jap, dewasakah aku?

My birthday celebration this year was okay.. Initiative on my part I might add. I invited some of my friends to have a majlis doa selamat for the upcoming series of examination and tests. And its also an indirect birthday celebration. I don't brag much about my birthday. I hid every info about my birthday in any possible social network that I have, just to see who will remember and who won't. And yep. I got the answer. Although it might not be fair to say those who wish me late doesn't remember my birthday for they might be busy.. But still.. It kinda hurts to see the ones that u expected to be among the earliest wishers are simply the last wishers.

But yeah.. I'm at the age where people expect me to be mature and refine. To be more forgiving and understanding. To be lenient and patient. To be wise. To be a woman.

Oh well. Good luck ain on that. And birthdays are just birthdays. Though I used to think as it being the measurement of how much good I did that year. If people remembers me, I'm awesome. If not, does it mean I suck? I dunno. I hope not.

Goodies for this birthday?

The purse is the most expensive present I ever receive in my whole life. Thank you Unie and Ain for that. Love you guys! Chocolate is from Hanis and hugs, kisses and love is from everyone else. Thank u so much for dedicating a day in your life to change your profile picture into my picture. I really appreciate that. :)

Oh, I did tell you about the doa selamat right? I made some beads as a token of appreciation.

Teehee. Cupcakes. Couldn't afford to buy it, so I made it. I made it in lots of colours too!

Comel kan? Tee hee..