Jijie!!

Ahhhh.. Seronok gila borak ngan dia... Otak hampir serabut dengan segala masalah. Good luck with the assignments!

Life as it is

I'm sinking pretty deep lately in all the freakiness that happens in my life. Fine. Maybe it's not really that freaky.. It's just that everything is so hard, and everytime I thought that things are going to be fine after this, it goes bad. I am trying to be a strong girl, and maybe this is how you get strength: from facing a lot of trouble. I just want to scream and shout and say "No more! Please!", but I know it didn't work that way. So what I can do now is just persevere, keep my head cool, and find a way to solve it.

I'm happy to say I finished my assignments in linguistic and microteaching, all ready to go. But as I said, I'm sinking. When I thought I did good on linguistic, the teaching part and also learning mandarin becomes so hard to do and vice versa. I admit, it's my fault that I kept on cutting class. It's not a good thing, so please don't follow my footsteps. But I can't take it. The whole time I'm in either linguistic lass or chinese class, I kept on wondering why the hell did I choose to stay and attend a lecture that 95% of it I don't understand or pay attention at? I must be going crazy.

I nearly spiralled down into the dark pool of depression, and I thank Allah that I didn't, that He still grant me sanity. I've been caught up with my emotions, with my failure in love, my financial problem... I was throwing away my responsibilities because I was being clouded by my emotions that I couldn't think straight. Well, at least no suicidal thought yet.

Am I a harm to myself and to anyone else?

On duty

Today I'm on duty, nothing much, just the normal Tuesday nights where everyone struggles to finish up their assignments so that they can party tomorrow and on the weekends. I really want to go home. Aaahh.. The things I miss..

• Mama
• Roti canai 
• nescafe ais
• Mama
• milo ais
• biskut munchys
• ayam masak merah kenduri

And the list goes on and on. I hope I can go back this June. *prays hard*

Feel an emptiness in my heart, like I've lost track on what I am supposed to be doing. I don't feel like studying, eating, seeing people. Oh God, I have this is not one of the episodes. I have enough of it. I just want to be happy. 

Mommy, I miss you :(

Stafford House Ball!

Yesterday I went to the ball that my unihall did. Well, I did it too.. It's fun! The theme was enchanted forest, and we got a few lot who had the spirit of dressing up according to the theme. Well, there are also people who dress up just for fun and it's amazing! I'm happy that people came for it, and I am also happy that my girls also came to the ball!

Imagine what did I dress up as?

The Red Riding Hood!

Me & some of my girls!

It was pretty interesting.  A drunk chick said i was the best RA she ever had and there's also a chick saying I'm hot & sexy. Pretty weird. All I wore is blouse and skirts, with a nice touch of a red cape. But that's alright, at least everybody's having fun. We dance, we sing, we eat, we laugh, a few dramas but no biggies.


Now who said we can't have fun?

YEAAYYY!!!

This is my last day of Gym. And I am proud to state that I have lost 8 kg and I'm happy!!!! I feel fitter, healthier, and... well.. more craving for the things I can't eat. hahaha. such as breakfast of toast with butter and jam or scrambled egg and baked beans... uuggghhhh.. Yumm!!!!

I baked a cake today to celebrate this moment. Okay, not exactly something my trainer will recommend, but hey, it's a celebration. Who cares?

Voila! Chocolate and mixed berries! Highly suitable for chocolate addict!! It's so sweet it blows off my mind. Like for real.

I wish I can show you what I look like before and after my gym so u can see whether I have look like I lost 8 kgs or not. But i am so technologically challenged that I don't really know how to do it. Oh well. I'll try my best!

until then!