Firework

This is something I did before. Put your music librabry on shuffle.or each question, press the next button to get your answer. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough. Ok, go.! When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this . The anwer to #20 is the Title of your notes.


1) If someone says "Is this ok?", You will say : 
  
My december - Linkin Park
  
2) How would you describe yourself? 
  
Just a dream - Nelly
  
3) What do you like in a boy? 
  
Derita Merindu - Ahli Fiqir

4) How do you feel today? 
  
California girls - Katy Perry Ft. Snoop Dog
  
5) What is your life's purposes? 
  
Never say never - Justin Bieber
  
6) What's your motto? 
  
Korean dream - G Dragon
  
7) What do your friends think of you? 
  
We run the night - Havana Brown Ft Pitbull
  
8) What do you think of your parents? 
  
My same - Adele
  
9) What do you think about every often? 
  
Unappreciated - Cherish
  
10) What is 2 +2? 
  
Another love song - Mike Posner
  
11) What do you think of your bestfriends? 
  
Last flight out - Plus one
  
12) What do you think of the person you like? 
  
The only exception - Paramore
  
13) What is your life story? 
  
Last Friday night - Katy Perry 
  
14) What do you want to be when you grow up? 
  
Belaian jiwa - Innuendo
  
15) What do you think off when you see the person you like? 
  
Blurry - Puddle of mud
  
16) What will you dance to at your wedding? 
  
Given up - Linkin Park 
  
17) What will they play at your funeral? 
  
Need you now - Lady Antebellum
  
18) What is your biggest fear? 
  
I don't understand - Big Bang 
  
19) What is your biggest secret? 
  
Cheers (Drink to that) - Rihanna
  
20) What will you post this as? 
  
Firework - Katy Perry

Pretty depressing compared to last entry : ----->  Click here!

Linguistic.

Assignment oh assignment.

I love you so much.

This is not sarcasm.

I said all this to show you I love you.

Now please go away.

BBM.

Someone just deleted me from BBM. Blackberry Messenger if you don't know what BBM means.

He said I wasn't being a good friend. That I didn't replied to any of his comments or texts. To be honest, I expected him to already block me on Facebook.

He accused me of having better friends here in New Zealand, that's why I forgot him. But I don't want to argue. I know he's hurt, and it's best that he doesn't have a sucky friend like me. A sucky fake useless ungrateful person who pretends to be a friend.


I don't want him to know I don't even have much friends here.

Questions.

They say don't ask questions that you don't want to know the answer to. 

But what if you want to hear the answer, but you just don't know whether you can take it well or not?

What if you want to know the truth, but all you hear are lies?

What if you can only answer questions with another questions, as a question lead to more questions but no definite answer?

Questions like:

"Does she/he loves me?"

"Do I really need this?"

"How much more can I take?"

All this questions, that I have no answers to. Do you? I pray in life that you have an answer to every question that you ask. 

No matter how hard the truth hits you. 

No matter how sweet the lies sway you. 

Don't know why..

Just so that you can sing along to it. 

Don't know why by Norah Jones

I waited 'til I saw the sun

I don't know why I didn't come

I left you by the house of fun

I don't know why I didn't come

I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day

I wished that I could fly away

Instead of kneeling in the sand

Catching tears in my hand

(a) My heart is drenched in wine

But you'll be on my mind

Forever

Out across the endless sea

I would die in ecstasy

But I'll be a bag of bones

Driving down the road alone

Repeat (a)

Something has to make you run

I don't know why I didn't come

I feel empty as a drum

I don't know why I didn't come

I don't know why I didn't come...

Blue.

Blue,
As the vast open sky of today

Blue,
As the sparkling mirror of ocean

Blue,
As the unseen wind greets us

Blue,
As the calmness and blessing wash over us

Insyallah, today will be a great day.

Gone.

Gone were the days of laughters and youth,
Here comes the wagon of tears and heartaches.

Gone were the days of carefree and nonchalant,
Here comes the train of troubles and sorrow.

Blow out the horns of sensibility!
Sharpen your weapons of maturity!
March ahead!

O Children of yesterday,
O Soldiers of today,
O Survivors of tomorrow.

Before we're gone.

Self conflict.

There are things that made me remember my past. Like the smell of Polo Blue that my ex boyfriend used to have, or the Rexona deodarant shower clean that reminded me of my college years. 

There are also things that made me wonder what will be of my future. Like the possibility of me getting married or that I'll be someone useful or important, even to a person. 

A friend of mine used to say that I'm too concerned in finding love that I wasted my potentials. I wonder what my potentials are? Probably my short temper and high chances of being emotional are among them. 

I go along in life, trying my best in everything, trying so hard to fit in, to be happy. 

All I want is to be happy. 

Yet happiness continue to elude me. Teasing me by giving me a taste of itself, only to follow with a bitter aftertaste. 

Maybe it's time to stop. To stop chasing after love, stop looking for it, stop thinking of it. But is that even possible? Me? A creature who craves love so much that she's willing to burn herself? 

"Mirror, mirror on the wall, who's my love among all?"

"...."

There's your answer dear.. There's your answer...